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I haven't fallen off the face of the earth...
the past 4 months have been really odd.
i split with my fiance, whom i've been with for 5 years, due to issues with work and well, core values i guess...
i have a new boyfriend now, who not only likes anime, actually took to ouran XD
when you get to my age, finding a guy your own age who likes the same stuff is hard (should you like the same sorts of stuff as i do... :p)
i've been busy with my flat, my work and not finding the time to sit at the computer and well... sit at the computer. lol.
part of the reason i was on here so much was because i was lonely, i was often on my own at home, and this was all there was.
but i promise i will find a balance, cos i love to draw soo muuuch!
here are some coloured Ouran scans i have a wip of mamo-bishies, the lineart for which was posted at my deviantart site, it's about 80% through, it's taken me weeks.
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| spoiler tastic chapter 50 scans |
[03 May 2007|07:34pm] |
Me and Maboroshi from FRoP are doing a scanlation of the newest chapter of ouran atm.
here's a few pages to whet the appitite...
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enjoy the angst!
i'm nearly done, this was Maboroshi's bit, but i'm typesetting so... ^^
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| More Random Blah <3 |
[12 Apr 2007|10:03pm] |
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Random no.1
Bon Bon
Ouendan!
Let's get cherry pie!
ran ran
kangeikai
you've got sensation!
hai!
sonzaikai
tenten shouwakusei
butsukatte
tokemashita
bouzen
ooi ni utatte
sing and dance!
WORK THAT 3 PEICE SAILOR SUIT¬!!! XDDDDDDDDD
I think i've watched the intro to Lucky Star about 30 million times now, the cutness is sickening, and the dance is amazing...
and the introduction of the subbed episode has made it worse, as now i understand the song, it makes me love it more!!! The episode itself is O_o...
to say the least.
but i think i share far too much in common with the blue haired girl XD 'Did you EVER have a real life friend?!' XDDDD
I'm also thinking of picking up Romeo and Juliet, but it ain't got a happy ending, and i can't stand unhappiness.
Random workings 2.)
Final Fantasy 3!
sorry for bleeting on and onnnnnn....
Goldor down, walking around Duster atm,
Theif Luneth (<3 to theives for being aceness personified) lvl 30
Knight Refia (hardass girls ftw.) lvl 30
White Mage Arc (dawww.....) lvl 30
and my personal favourite (because Becky is a bit obsessed with blondes)
DRAGOON INGUS!!! lvl 30
He's hot, he's wearing colours that co-ordinate with his hair and eyes, and he kicks stratospheric jumping butt.
still, the 6606 damage hit he did as a Scholar... MAN.
no black mage atm, they bore me to be honest. i might pick it back up later, or give something else magic-y a go.
i love the sound of the summoner... *BAHMUTTTTT!!!*
RAWRGGGGG!!!
and i walked up to a guy in duster and the item music played i thought 'OOO!'
and he said 'This is the sound when you get II-TEMMS!!!'
o_O you win sir, you win.
the other dude who said something about laying the smackdown highly amused me too. Someone was a bit liberal with the translation i see XD
OURRAAANNNNN.....
because no ramble would be complete without mentioning the love that is pretty boys selling thier services eh?
THE GAME... it's out soon. Not that i...
a) own a japanese playstation
b) understand enough Japanese to make someone like me
c) have a partner understanding of my desire to date a fictional 17 year old boy >_>
acks.
I REALLY hope somone gets it and blogs thier progress, because it sounds LOVE. i could make Tamaki and Haruhi REAL... repeatedly, ad nauseum... literally XD or Honey and Haruhi (already gacks at the weirdness of honey blushing on the promo shots) or one of those weird game only characters... Leo whats-his-name the tamaki/hikaru merge, and the other one that looks like mori/kasanoda...
no... stick to TamaHaru. Daddy wants me toooooo~~~*** or something.
i can just imagine myself sat there with a manaical face, staring into my kanjii book, internet at my side
'Will you what my what?!' o_O
oooo...
that still makes no sense...
ack... i need more time for decisions...
NOOOOOooooooooooo.......
XDDDD
still there is always drawing... but drawings don't have Mamo-chan's droolish worthy voice, and Maya-chan's 'YARE YARE...' XD
-still waiting for chapter 50. T minus 10 days (ish).
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| Tamamom ficlet / Ouran musings |
[09 Apr 2007|01:03am] |
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Me and ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) cup_ramen_chaos (Ryune) were talking today (via MSN) of many things, such as, the mysteries of Kyouya's sex-appeal, and how perhaps his glasses were a lid to contain the immense MOE caused by not wearing the glasses. For without them, Kyouya would be eaten alive by fangirls, laptop and private police or not.
However i have a strange !extra! MOE for Tamaki *with* glasses.
For all things equal and opposite?
the fangirl mind boggles.
the other thing mentioned was Tamaki recieving Kuma-chan. we both supposed the bizzare teddy was given by Yuzuru, Ryune then started a ficlet about such an event.
My mind started working in an strange parallel tangent, and came up with a little ficlet about Tamamom. I've been trying to ditch the inner dubbing of 'michelle' i gave her, since that was the name of the Queen/Princess the host club met in chapters 38 and 39 whom looked like Tamaki's mom... and so i found the name Élodie, which seems quite sad, and beautiful, and thus fitting.
But then i didn't mention it once anyway.
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[08 Apr 2007|08:01pm] |
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Ouran Manga colour no. 30000#
PIRATES!
courtesy of chapter 38. Use for whatever you like.
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| Blog update! and random Tamaki |
[06 Apr 2007|12:08am] |
Tamaki and Haruhi layout :3
and i drew this pic this afternoon, in a direct response to my first rather mopey post today.
I feel alot less Emo-ed out now XD
thoguh i still haven't gone back to FF3. I think i'm sulking still... inside.
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| How i suck at games... and other doggrel |
[05 Apr 2007|10:48am] |
I got FF3 for my birthday, and i've been playing it ALOT since then.
However, i am a total gametard.
1) I can't figure out how to send messeges, there seems to be no keyboard to put letters in, or anything indicating such a thing exists.
I keep sending blank letters to Sara, she must be sat up in that castle going 'INGUS YOU GOON! WTF IS THIS!!!?!!'
2) I have no idea where the heck i'm supposed to be heading most of the time, leading to me wandering aimlessly killing things i'm pretty sure i killed 10 levels ago and gave much better EXP back then...
3) i use the 'freebie' throw spells i get out of chests to kill bosses, only to realise later, they'd be MUCH more useful on a the boss i'm killing who's beating my head in cos i used all my 'acrtic wind' or whatever.
4) i HATE Gutsco, or 'goblinpoo' as i have now dubbed him. when he turns into a lizard and breaths fire on me, WHY THE HECK DOESN'T ICE ARMOR PROTECT AGAINST THAT?!?!??! i died... first death in the game, and i had to go waaay back to when i first fell back in the boat after the tower of Owen :((((((
5) I was told last night at the pub by a friend who was beatign the game as he served drinks, that i could acually cast spells on more than on thing at once! why don't i read manuals T_T... ACK....
6) If i'd have known 6 before 5, i might not have to fight a million sea serpents again. WOE IS ME.
*i need an Emo corner*
And elite beat agents showed me i have the hand eye coordination of a cyclops chimp.
and why am i eating chocolate easter egg for breakfast, before easter no less...?
*Art rant*
i need to do more drawing, but i feel a bit lack-luster about it atm, and i need to stop stitting there with millions of ouran pics around me drawing the characters within an inch of an image, because that's not me at all is it?
That's just a freaking picture someone else managed to draw easily, but which i need the concentration of a milion buddhas just to get close to.
but if i draw them on my own, without the support of hundreds of reference pictures to gawp at, i feel they look weird and ugly and i just want to scream. I think i'm getting OCD about it or something. It's not like anyone cares how close they are anyway, it's fanart O_o...
I think i got like this because the !pirate ouran! pic i drew is so stupidly popular, i see it all over the internet in ouran picture sections on forums and the like. And is was basically because the characters are very similar to the anime.
And that was last August, when i'd just finished the teaching course and i was with lots of time on my hands, and nothing much to fill it.
sometimes i feel like deleting that picture off DA because i get so annoyed with it.
I often wonder if i actually have an art style, if anything is characteristic of me from one picture to the next, other than the childish technicolour palette (which i presume is because of my need to be very colourful at all times XD) because i can't tell...
Maybe i should draw some of my own stuff for a bit, and forget about my deranged otaku weird desire to have a Tama x Haru shrine of fanart. I really don't need to do any more Tama x Haru really anyway, i have far too much already :D
actually i really want an artsite like i often find japanese people have, with a blog bit, and sketches, and a cg section. My website skills are circa 1998 though, and i can make webpages by hand with html, but i can't use programs, they make me dizzy XD
Life-stuffs
Weather has been amazing here this week, t-shirt and jeans weather, sitting in the park squinting at my DS weather.
My birthday cake was yum, all gone now though, Matt polished it off rather quickly.
I gave Matt a hair cut, he had such long hair he got upset about it being in his eyes all the time.
His hair is blonde, and naturally parts slightly in two tiny partings at the front of his hair, so a little tuff sits in the middle of his forehead. So i was weilding scissors, and holding a perfect opportunity to create a perfect fangirl haircut.
but i have only rudimentary hairdressing skills. (lol)
the only pic i have of him that properly demonstrates the hair homage is this one.
but that was taken last year, and yes, he has a photoshopped t-shirt XD It looks very similar to that again now, which makes me a rather happy girl XDDD
If i could get him to cosplay Tamaki or Ingus, just once *_*
dammit. He'd NEVER do that.
though he'll happy dress up as Lion-o >_> hmmm...
i'm quite happy i finally started using this place, i bought a sub for it when i first joined, for no apparent reason, and now all my layout is squewhiff. Maybe i should splash out and look for a nice layout. the Iridescent Jewel image of Tamaki on my background is smexy but a bit off-putting XD
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| Ouran Cake! |
[30 Mar 2007|08:52pm] |
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Me and my best mate Andrea baked a cake today (actually i baked and iced the damn thing and she made a bunbun some petals, and a mess XD)
i decided on an ouran cake... i was gonna go the whole hog and go for a tamaki cake, but meh, i'm just not l33t enough to do a human character cake. i can do animals, crests, but not faces.
so here it is :3
http://www.skelleftea.co.uk/ourancakeie.jpg
<3
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| Lots of the Random! (and spoilers) |
[24 Mar 2007|10:49pm] |
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Going home to Grimsby this week, as i took a week off to celebrate my 25th and also to sort out the impending wedding.
I just recently got my mum using MSN, and she's starting to drive me insane.
My mother and i have an amicable silent agreement not to bother each other. Our personalities are completly mismatched, and we just make each other angry. This of course was hard going up, but easier past the age of 18 when i've only seen her for a few days a year.
But now she has MSN, and she's on it every night, asking me pointless questions xD
that, and she talks in text-speak. The bane of the Earth.
I have to stay with her when i go home, which is another reason why going home is hard work!
that and it's 5 hours away on the train >_>
Still! it'll be good to get more sorted, and prove i can do this wedding xD
honestly, having me organise anything, is definately a recipe for disaster. I am one of the most poorly organised people ever, and never ever have things sorted in time. I do have a good memory though, so generally if someone asks me to do something i will...
Not necessarily when they ask, but still XD
Wednesday will be amusing >_> mother plans to take me out for a meal. If my dad is there too, there will be a stony silence and all questions will be aimed at me T_T; if Matt is there, it won't be quite as bad XD
and finally!
Chapter 49 is out, the contest of Tamaki vs Kyouya ends (very cutely) and it seems for chapter 50 onward, Yuzuru has planned a trip for the second years to France?
Tamaki and Kyouya's field trip!
A few things this is likely to mean:-
1)Tamaki is caught in a conflict of seeing his mother / not seeing her
2) Kyouya is of some aid in this matter
3) the rest of the club end up coming to help? - Haruhi hasn't got a passport... I'm really not sure about this then.
4) Tamaki is forced to make some kind of choice. As to the severity of this, it waits to be seen.
Should Tamaki meet his mother, will she be instrumental in some way to resolving Tamaki's inner stupidity conflict?
will his grandma find out and go postal?
This is perhaps the most exciting thing to be disclosed since chapter 45 and Kaoru confessing to Honey about Haru...
XDDD
frankly, i shouldn't be allowed to be this obsessed with a manga, it can't be good for my health.
and this shot?
 AWWWWWW!!!! XDDDDD (sorry for the blur)
i'm a sucker i know O_O;
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| Thank you :3 |
[09 Mar 2007|08:46am] |
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I seriously didn't expect replies! :3
I had a good word with Matt last night, and as i expected, he was all for me going for the job, or any job there, so i could get out of here.
'I'll commute!' he added cheerfully, if not a little unrealistically XD
Seems he wants a steadier job so he can focus his free time on new projects with his friends, as they are currently trying to put a pitch together for a pre-school show about a grandad who reads stories to his grandaughter. ^^ *so cute*
atm he works every day from 9-6, and then comes back most evenings to work till 1am in a bar to make enough money for us to live.
I feel terrible about all that anyway, but i never asked him to do the bar work, he took that on himself and i keep telling him to quit.
but that's beside the pont.
So anyway, it transpires that i shall rework my CV this weekend and pass it on with a cover letter to Trina.
If i do get this job, we might actually get to go to Florida for our honeymoon! :3
yay for Disney world and the land of waterparks :3
and thankyou. I really hate feeling down like that, i really try to stay positive most of the time!!!
back to drawing the doujinshi XDDD
thanks guys ^^ i felt so happy reading all your comments and advice and stuff. Still not looking forward to turning 25 though XD
i'm soooooo glad i'm told i only look about 19 XD
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| Feeling on a knife's edge. |
[08 Mar 2007|10:13pm] |
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I'm sorry this is gonna be an essay. I need to pour me heart out somewhere, and here's as good as anywhere.
I fell in love with a great guy at 18, at first sight no less, a blonde, slightly confused, head ducking under the work canteen door, trying not to be noticed, when all the world would notice because of his height ^^ *remembering makes me smile*
But having been consistantly burned, (long awkward story) and so very unsure of myself, i did nothing.
i went to uni, i got my first boyfriend, he cheated on me, i got dumped, and i came home a shell, and went back to work...
and there he was again, and somehow, his cheerful pretty face made me hope for something more than i though i could get, a guy as pretty as him would never like a girl like me.
But he did.
and though we'd never said a word to each other, ever, we were set up on a date, and inexplicably, we never let each other go.
He went to uni when i started my third year, and when i started my fourth year, there was no doubt in my mind i wanted to follow him and go wherever he wanted.
I came to live with him three years ago, i just got a 2:1 masters in chemistry. But i hadn't taken chemistry because i wanted a career in it, oh no... i chose it because i thought i should choose something clever T_T...
I'm a freaking fool!
i took a year out and got a crapy job in retail while matt finished his second year. I decided that year my escape from lab work was teaching, and that didn't seem a bad idea. So i took a course to train as a teacher. I would finish the same year as Matt finished his degree... All was good... so i thought.
Matt finished his animation degree June last year and went straight into freelancing. He did well, though the work isn't consistant.
I just finished my teaching course and should have gone into a teaching job.
but i didn't. I instead chickened out and got a minimum wage job in a crap hardware shop, i excused myself by saying i felt i'd tie us down if i got a proper job, and Matt might have to move us somewhere.
But really, i was probably just scared. The teaching course made me realise how rediclously unprepared and silly i am, i had to live on my teeth to get through it. I passed it well, but i felt scarred and and battered... I'm outgoing, but i'm not a completely natural shows-woman.
charisma is somewhat lacking... I'm not what i'd like to have teaching me, so i feel like i failed. I don't want to be a part of that anymore. I might take up tutoring, but for now, i've ruled out teaching. I lose my soul to it. It just upsets me.
i can't say i've been unhappy, i've been pretty content, i get lots of free time, (My biggest passion is drawing, and i can't feel myself if i don't have time to do it, like a part of my soul is missing...) though the money coming in is rubbish. But my underlying feeling is faliure. I failed my parents, i failed my teachers, Matt... (though oddly i just feel hollow when i think if i failed myself)
i feel embarassed, and stupid. But i couldn't bring myself to do anything about it.
When Matt proposed to me, I decided we had to get out of here, the town we live in is awful, it's a dirty and deprived place, with loads of crime and undesirable people. He'd come here to go to uni, and i'd followed him instinctively, never questioning it.
But i hate the place, sometimes it just brings me to tears. Somehow though, i know he likes it, he has lots of friends here. I don't, so i feel a bit lost.
Despite all that, he swore he'd get me out of here, and tried to get jobs that i know he wouldn't like, in nicer places, and it's been tearing me apart. He didn't get any of them, i'm guessing because truely, he wants to be a character animator, and make cartoons, and that's a dream... I don't have a dream, ( well i do, but it's not a practical one, nor am i good enough at it to make a living out of it.)
I don't want him to settle for anything less than what he set out to do, But he wants me to be happy. Why can't he see i'm only happy when he is? And why can't i bring myself to do the jobs i trained in so that he doesn't need to work for a crappy games company?
'Are you going to live your life wondering
standing in the back, looking around?
are you going to waste your time thinking
how you've grown up
or how you missed out?
things are never going be the way you want
when's it going to get you acting serious?
things are never going to be quite what you want
even at twenty five you got to start sometime.' - A praise chorus - Jimmy eat world
I just listened to that, and it prompted me to writ all this.. i feel rather like that now... Have i been setting myself aside for something i hope he'll acheive? will i regret that later?
i'm 25 in three weeks, and i get married in 8 months.
You know, i know that with all my qualifications, i must be good at SOMETHING. But i have no clue what, i was so used to feeling clever and good at stuff, it got so disconcerting to feel inadequate and rubbish... now i'm so scared to make a move to get something else. I've moaned about all this before... Countless times, but it remains.
Today, my good friend Trina told me she'd asked at her work place (Her rather more charismatic and pro-active boyfriend got a job at a games comany in a very nice place) what someone with my skills would get.
I'd start on 19k (30-34k dollars?), and that'd go up very fast, i'd start off as a trainee executive.. *executive?! me?!*
i currently earn minimum wage, so i'm on 7k a year.
I now feel torn. I didn't think i could get jobs like that!
I know if i go for jobs like that, there, i'd finally feel validated. But would i be happy? and what about Matt? :( i feel like suddenly i'm tearing him away from his dreams.. and that's the last thing i want. Because i know, if i ask him, he'll follow me there.
but it's closer to home there, i worry so much about my parents... and people won't pee in the street outside my windows!!
i know it's a round-a-bout way of saying all that, and there's still lots of other things worrying me i left out, but that's the crux of it.
I don't want to burden my fiance, but i want to feel better about myself finally, and i hope one day i'll find a job that'll have a good work life balance and earn me enough money so i don't have to lie to my mother about what i do.
i'm nearly 25. I should be more mature. I can't run forever can i? :(
*sigh*
if you've managed to read his far, i commend you. *gives you a cookie*
i'm not asking for sympathy, because i know it's all my fault. I just had to say it.
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| the answers! |
[20 Jan 2007|09:26pm] |
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1) Inuyasha
Ryune, and anyone else would probably have guessed that Inuyasha is my favourite. As the first anime character i ever fell for, Inuyasha could only be my favourite character in the titled series XD
2)Ouran High School Host Club Again, Ryune... but with as much as i prattle about Tamaki it's hardly suprising XD i love Tamaki more than annnnnnnyething XD
3) Urusei Yatsura
ryune was again... right. Lum is my favourite female anime character. she's amazing... i'd love to be able to shoot lightning.
4) Maison Ikkoku
Godai - He's purely and simply a sweetheart
5) Chobits -
Kotoko - the little puple girl with bells. she's a mean ass personcon XD
6) Rurouni Kenshin -
Kenshin - as guessed by Ryune. Kenshin is a darling. he's strong, passionate, and most of all, he's great round the house.
7) Kyou Kara Maoh
ryune guessed... Yuuri. he's cute XD
8) Fruits Basket
Hatsuharu *_* shame he wasn't in it more XD 9) Friends (haha) Pheobe - Shuki guessed XD i have alot in common with pheebs. 10) Shakugan no Shana - Shana - firehaired sword weilding girls ftw.
11) Bleach (having seen 2 episodes) - Rukia - Shuki guessed. she seemed cool xD
12) the Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya - Koizumi - he's just XDDDD sooo fuuny. Not intentionally of course.
13) Full Metal Panic - sousuke XD
14) Full Metal Alchemist - Ed. cos no one messes with Ed. Rune guessed.
15) Death Note - Light. too obvious eh? all mamo-chan's fault i'm afraid.
16) Paradise Kiss - hiroyuki - soooooo kind *_*
17) Ranma 1/2 - Ranma. can't help it XD
18) Naruto (why not, everyone else watches it) - Emo boy Sasuke. shuki guessed. - he's very pretty.. and i've never seen it to have it ruined for me XD
19) Howl's Moving castle XD - Howl - duh XD Ryune guessed. though, a bit too easy ;)
20) the Lion King... (cos i can.) - Rafiki. 'you follow old rafiki! he know the way!!' xD
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RIGHT!!!
Ryune got me thinking...
20 FAN BASE CHARACTER SEACH GET THING!
(basically you guess who my favourite character is and win... nothing! but it's fun. trust me.)
1) Inuyasha
2) Ouran High School Host Club
3) Urusei Yatsura
4) Maison Ikkoku
5) Chobits
6) Rurouni Kenshin
7) Kyou Kara Maoh
8) Fruits Basket
9) Friends (haha)
10) Shakugan no Shana
11) Bleach (having seen 2 episodes)
12) the Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya
13) Full Metal Panic
14) Full Metal Alchemist
15) Death Note
16) Paradise Kiss
17) Ranma 1/2
18) Naruto (why not, everyone else watches it)
19) Howl's Moving castle XD
20) the Lion King... (cos i can.)
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Icon bases!
I love to colour manga scans, so in a strange burst of fanaticism i coloured a whole bunch of Tamaki scans
to make Tamaki-bases.
there are a couple i turned into Icons also.
and there's one random-ish Haruhi scan XD
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[14 Dec 2006|12:00am] |
the bathroom out.
i don't think i do that... ever. XD
holy hell.
*barf*
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Title: Reasoning the unreasonable.
Featuring: Haruhi / Tamaki
Genre: Waff
Words: 990
Rating: 12+ ?
Warnings: none save my own odd grammar. XD
Notes: ' She had felt she could have resisted him forever, unyielding and unimpressed, disregarding him completely.
He has seemed so pointless and pompous at first, a non-event, a nonsense, Nothing of consequence at all.'
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| A cheque to pay in total |
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My second Ouran fic, and also my second Haruhi x Tamaki.
Though originally it was three times as long and mostly about Hikaru. i cut my loses, this was the best bit. After all, i've always wanted to know how this would play out, and i hope one day Hatori does play it out.
or i'll be so sad XD
1448 words
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[19 Oct 2006|07:07pm] |
just a re-done scan from the drama cd XD
i was quite happy with the results... ^^
( Follow the frilly dress )
hurrah for the drama cd XD
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